For the past 2 days, have been meeting up with HIM after work.On Monday, after work, went for a bite with Adeline. Went to eat at Polar cafe. Chatted for sometime there as well...After that, she went to do some shopping on her own. I took the MRT to Yishun. WE planned to watch Chandramukhi in the night. Wanted to do so on Sunday evening. But he was too tired after work. He did not have much rest the day before. After alighting me at check-point, he had to go and fetch his brother to the hosiptal, drive the car back home and come back to go to work. Poor thing...Bought the tickets, shop around while waiting for 8pm to come. Time to wake him up. However, he called me at 7.30pm. Met at around 8.30pm.He was really enjoying the show at first, before the break. It is acted by the popular actor, who only act once every 5 years, according to him. That is why the ticket cost $15 per person!!!We chatted abit during break-time. Suddenly, the topic of me suspecting of having a baby came about. I do not know how come I could have this feeling and thought then. He was faster than me!!! Wanted to discuss it with him after the show. But...It really dampened his mood. Could not concentrate on watching the movie anymore.Discuss alot about it after the movie. He looked really really lost... helpless... Almost cried I guess... He insist that the baby cannot be kept. But I insist that no way am I going for any abortion. That is if it really happens. Promised him to go for a test to see whether or not it is true.That very night, I found out that I am not. Should I be happy or sad?But I do not know why, I lied to him that I am not sure of the outcome. Because of this, he did not sleep the whole night. So sorry my dear... I do not know why I did it too.Yesterday, in the afternoon, messaged him and told him I am not having any child. He asked if I was lying in the beginning. My answer was no. Part of it was the truth. I really have the thought initially.Wanted to and watch another movie in the evening. But I did not want to. Wanted to meet him and talk things through. Went to pack his room. Decided to take a nap after that. Asked me to go home first and meet him only at 7pm. Did just that...Met him at Yio Chu Kang MRT station and went to Little India for dinner. Through-out the journey, we talked quite a fair bit. He has been coughing out blood and has traces of blood in the urine. For about a month and only now he told me!!! Wanted so much to bring him to see the doctor. Was very very worried then... But it was rather late already then. Cannot think of any clinic in town that is open. Promised me that he will go for a check-up today.Also talked about us now, what will we become in the future. I realise, I really really cannot let go of him. Am in love with him more and more each day...After dinner, went to Mustafa Centre to take a look at the VCD player for his car. He claims that I promised to buy him one and have to do so next month. If I get my upselling allowance for January to March that is. ***Prays hard now***She called him... He called her back... I just walked slightly ahead of him, trying my best to look as normal as I can.After he hang up the phone, he turned and tell me, "I finally get to see how a girl's face is like when she is jealous."?!?!?! Caught in the act. Tried to deny but I know he will not believe... =)We took the MRT to Chinatown, as he needed to go to the loo badly. From there, we walked to Amara.Saw a number of familiar faces yesterday. In MRT, in the way to Chinatown, saw his homtown friend. At Chinatown bumped into Mei. While walking to Amara, saw an ex-chef of Amara. Was thinking hard what did he worked as in Amara. Thought he was a part-timer at first...He went for a check-up straight away after work today. Found out he got gastric ulcer. Take great care my dear...Just talked to him awhile ago... Suddenly mentioned about the skirt Jie Yin and Jie Min bought for me as a birthday gift last year. And I just wore it today!!! So coincident... Is it??? It has been quite some frequent that we both have the same or similar thoughts and actions lately... =)For the past few days, ever since we went to Kuala Lumpur, I have been living in bliss. Feels like the good old days. Can we be like this forever? Will he be mine and only mine again eventually? God knows...I will be right here waiting for you sweetheart...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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